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There was a sin I couldn't forgive myself for, even though I had confessed it multiple times. In my mind, I knew that the Lord Jesus had forgiven me, but in my heart, I couldn’t accept it. I feel now as though I've been given a fresh, clean slate, as if God told me that He had already forgiven me a long time ago, that He loves me as I am, and that I don’t need to carry my sins with me any longer. This was one of my realizations. The other was about the concept of sin—I realized that I can acknowledge and express that I am a sinner, and this is who I am. My heart was touched by the truth that God sacrificed His only Son, and that this was painful for the Father. I realized that I go about my days without thinking about how the Heavenly Father gave His beloved Son for me. I want to live in a way that values and reciprocates this act of love from the Father. I don’t know yet how I’ll be able to do this, but I want to strive toward it. I also see my parents differently, as I know now that it was from the Heavenly Father’s love that my parents took care of me. I understood that I can call upon the Holy Spirit for help, and that He is a person.

F.Zs.

I feel that in this World, evil is very active, pulling me away from God. I have often encountered the Holy Spirit, though I didn’t realize it at the time. Now I understand that I met the Holy Spirit during the Mass, and it was at those moments when tears flowed—not out of sadness or joy, but simply from a comforting feeling within me, which I initially felt embarrassed about. Now I know it was the Holy Spirit working within me. I understood that the Holy Spirit doesn’t just come and go but is within me, and I need to find His voice because He is always there in anyone who has been baptized. I deeply enjoyed the moments of worship, as I felt the Holy Spirit strongly present there too. I raised my hands and felt a breeze, which I thought was a draft in the room, but when I looked around, there was no draft at all. That’s when I decided to allow myself to feel the Holy Spirit. I also realized how important community is in my life.

V.O.

I understood that God loves me as I am, even if I am overweight. Even if people don’t accept me and criticize me, God still loves me. It’s important for me to welcome the Holy Spirit, because if I do, I can radiate God and speak about Him. I realized that attending a community is crucial because it helps me grow in faith; without growth, I would remain at an infantile level in my spiritual life. Another thing that touched me was realizing that, within the community, we need to humble ourselves toward one another, and we must first strengthen ourselves to be able to welcome new people into the community. I understood that I shouldn’t be self-centered or prideful within the community, as it prevents me from uplifting others and only leads to confrontation and conflict. I used to be highly self-critical, but now I realize that I have a sinful nature that I can bring before Jesus, and I don’t have to continue carrying my burdens and sins alone. I need to learn to recognize the voice of the Shepherd, as then I’ll know what to pay attention to.

Sz.K.

Looking back, I feel that I have only now reached a spiritual place where I can fully receive what the Philip Course prepared for me. During the course, I felt like I did in my childhood when I was preparing for my first communion, because then, too, I marveled at God and faith, and I was able to experience this again even more deeply. When they prayed for me, I felt something within me that urged me to keep moving forward on God’s path.

K.P.

So many things touched me from the very first day. I really enjoyed the teachings and visual aids. I loved that we started each day with worship and that I could praise the Lord. I realized that I have a sinful nature, and it’s important that I move forward on God’s path each day with faith and repentance.

F.O.

I had been preparing for the Philip Course for a long time, and I was delighted that it was organized in Gheorgheni. On the first day, I didn’t feel well, but I tried to persevere. By the second day, however, I was feeling very good, and the topic of the Holy Spirit was my favorite. My heart was touched when I called upon the Holy Spirit and asked for His gifts. I feel I received many gifts from Him, including the interpretation of prayer in tongues and the gift of prophecy. I understood that I can acknowledge my sinful nature without turning away from God because of it."

Inner Heanling Course – Ciceu - 13-16 of July, 2024

K.L.

I feel that I have been enriched a lot on this course, it was good to be here and to learn. I would like to apply what I have learned on this course to my life so that I don't fall back. One of our great pains is that we have not conceived a child for a very long time. I work a lot and have put my family on the back burner, but I want to change that. What I remember most about the course is that I used to deal with my big hurts by "forgiving but not forgetting". I thought that with that statement I had done my forgiveness, but here I realized that I needed to forgive completely. For many years I have not been able to forgive one person in my life, but I feel that I have now been able to do it.

K.T.

I've always believed that Heavenly Father is like me, that He forgives me, but He will submit the bill for my sins in the end. I feel now that I can let that go now. There were things, sins, that I carried for a long time and confessed many times, carrying them like a weight on my back. I have now experienced a great release, I have been able to forgive myself after all this time and this baggage has been lifted from my shoulders. I feel that I have grown “wings". Another thing is that my mother was the hardest to forgive. I knew from an earlier time that my mother was the cause of many of my hurts, because I thought it was because of her that I had been very self-doubting and achievement-centered throughout my life. I thought I had to be perfect in front of everyone and I strived for perfectionism at home. I was trying to put on a good face for everyone, while feeling very lonely inside. I have been all these years empty, aimless, helpless, having achieved nothing, no children, not having changed the world, not having achieved anything. This course has helped me a lot not to be perfect and to dare to trust God with things. I've always been like "I'm trusting you Lord, but I'm holding the other end of the reins in my hand because I just know better what I need". Now I understand what it means to be like a child and dare to trust Him. I now know that I am valuable and He loves me just the way I am. Whatever the future brings, He surely knows what is good for me. This thing of having to forgive everyone from the bottom of my heart has brought such a relief to my life that I could fly. I came here barely able to pull myself together, physically and mentally, but now I have to say that I leave feeling very energized both physically and mentally and I hope to stay that way.

A.M.

What touched me the most was forgiveness, because I realized that it's about the fact that I'm not to blame. I understood how difficult it is to forgive when you are not at fault, to see the situation you put the other person in. The other thing that struck me was to not let my anger outward, nor inward, but upward and blast it out to God, because I always bounced my anger back to the other person(s), who hurt me. I had the hardest time forgiving myself. When I came out of counseling, I felt like I wanted to go to confession. I always heard that grace and blessing flow when you forgive and repent of your sins. When I was on my way to confession, I saw my husband playing ping pong with my children and I experienced that as a grace and blessing because even my older son who doesn't like to play, even he stood there and they were together. Through the confessor priest I could put all the burdens down and felt like I was flying home. Many people have said this metaphor but I could never understand it, however, I was able to experience this true freedom and I was singing praises on my way home.

Sz.B.

I feel that I have experienced very profound moments. What was most profound was that two of my memories healed a lot. The interesting thing was that this process continued when I went home. I remembered an old memory and the Holy Spirit showed me now what I should have said to my mother at her death, and how I should have said goodbye to her. I feel like I have experienced complete healing from this memory. It was very difficult to forgive myself and also to my father, but I have managed to do so now. I was able to experience this sense of freedom. In prayer I saw the image of a white swan and I saw it come out of the water and shake itself and spread its wings. Many times, before that, I had the image of a bird with broken wings when I thought of myself. I had always longed to be freed from my sins and healed, but I didn't think it could happen so suddenly, so I am very thankful to God for everything.

B.K.

I understood in this course that I should first listen to the word of God and then act. God has designed a fulfilled life for me when I am in communion with Him, but if I get angry with either Him or the people around me, I cut myself off from Him. God is not in fellowship with unforgiveness. Forgiveness is a decision that is not always accompanied by emotion, but the Holy Spirit will heal my emotions after the decision is made. During counseling I experienced the leading of the Holy Spirit. He reminded me of past hurts, but spoke gently. The Good Lord gave me the freedom to open my old wounds. I could give those wounds to God to heal.

Inner Healing and Deliverance Course - Oradea – May, 2024

Sz.M.

Before the course I felt like I was carrying a lot of burdens and I prayed a lot that God would take them away, which He did in this course. I had many problems in my childhood and marriage, and I turned to wrong solutions, to sorcery so that my life would get fixed. However, I saw that there was no result in card reading, so I turned to God because I thought there was no one else to help me. Now I see that God was there with me in difficult situations. Because I saw how my parents lived when I was a child, I didn't want to go through that with my husband, so I said if it doesn't work, I'd rather kill myself. I just said that, but for a long time I blamed myself, and told myself, I was no good at anything, and other people told me the same things. I have now come to realize that God has done a lot of miracles in my life and I wouldn't be here without him. God has kept my broken life. For a long time, I was ashamed of my marriage, my family, but now I am free from that. I couldn't let go of my failed marriage and divorce, for which I blamed myself for a long time. It was hard for me to forgive myself, but now I understand how important it is and I have succeeded.

R.Zs.

I knew something was wrong in my life, but I couldn't put my finger on it. I realized that I had a strong performance compulsion and it had been with me all my life. What is my weakness is actually my strength. I had to live up to a lot of expectations in my family and in different institutions. I felt like I was expected to do more than I was capable of and what I could deliver, but with God I can. It was good to say it, to put it into words, that I forgive those who have hurt me. I realized I wanted to work on healing my family tree as well.

J.K.

I understood a lot of things in my head on the course and before, but the course was good for me to get things from my head to my heart. I have been wondering for some time where my problems with maximalism come from. I didn't dare to let anything go, I always wanted to solve everything myself, I had to check everything. The Holy Spirit brought it up with the help of my counselor that it was a childhood injury. I realized that this injury happened when I was 6 years old. I'm a sandwich kid, my little brother was born and everything was turned upside down. I was very neglected because of the little one and so I ran away from home because I felt I needed to know everything in order to be good. It was good to recover from that. I had to forgive my mother for never telling me the same thing twice. If I had a question at school, she always said I didn't have time to tell you twice. She was sick, unfortunately, so I understand that she didn't have time, but it was good to admit it, take it to the Lord and ask Him for healing. That was the hardest thing I put down right now, not to be angry with anyone, not with my mom, not with my little brother. It was a big job in my life, but I was freed from it.

S.Gy.

The experiences I have had at the Inner Healing Course in Oradea had such a strong impact on me that it gave me a good feeling of spiritual muscle ache. The things that I have been confronted with during your teachings and testimonies proved to be necessary for my spiritual healing and the purification of my soul. I could liken it to the high heat required to bake a freshly mined gold nugget in a crucible. Just as the gold separates from the slag, so too, after the conversation and deliverance prayers with my counselor, the precious part of my spiritual world separated from my sinful tendencies and woundedness. Glory to the Holy Trinity, one God, for all this!

The Philip Course - Ciceu – 26-28 of April, 2024

S.Z.

The moment I liked the most was when we invited the Holy Spirit into our lives. I was touched by the prayer of one of the brothers, because God said something through him that he had no way of knowing about me, because he didn't know me, and that's how I knew that God was really speaking to me through him. I feel strengthened in my faith that Jesus is always by my side, always behind me and helping me. What I liked the most was that the testimonies were honest and they were set up with examples from life that could have happened to us, so I could put myself in these situations better. I also liked that I was given solutions, illustrated with concrete examples of how I can practice my faith in everyday life. Last year I joined the Church community in Ciceu and I have helped manage the website. This course strengthened me to be more open in the community, to talk to people. I am ready to what I can do for the community.

B.Sz.

I had a powerful experience on this course through the love of God. I understood that I had abandoned God, but now I know that God loves me anyway. He has not abandoned me, I have abandoned Him. I feel like I am a new person, a new person stepping out into the world today. It touched me that my sinful nature comes from my heart. Until now I could not grow and I felt like a withered rose, I could not be released until the point that I received the Holy Spirit into my life on Saturday and I realized that the Holy Spirit had also intervened so that I could take this course.

B.L.

My conversion was a very slow process, I was familiar with what I have heard in the course, but there was one thing I hadn't heard before. It was the subject of sin that touched my heart now. With my sin nature, I had been striving to sin less and hurt God less. However, there was a sense in me that there would come a time when I would have almost no sin because I would cut everything out of my life. However, the fact that I have a sinful nature due to the orginal sin which I cannot get rid of shocked me. This affected me the most and it was hard to accept that I had to live with, as with my shadow. When I step out into the sun, my sinful nature shows and comes with me. But the good thing is that God's light shines on me!

F.I.

The Philip Course has given and taken away so much, for which I am very grateful. Firstly, I had a great struggle with my need to conform to others, unfortunately this was exacerbated by my married life and my illness. I was at a low point, but I feel that I was able to put my burdens down at this course. I gave myself completely to God, with all my faults. I understood not to expect things from others first, but to work on myself first of all. My middle brother and I had a conflictual relationship, I tried to reconcile, but I didn't see the openness on his part to do so. I couldn't be free from this bad feeling of him being angry with me. I feel I was able to put this relationship in God's hands. This course gave me peace of mind.

P.P.

From the beginning to the end of the course, every moment touched my heart. What I would highlight from this was that I was confronted with the fact that God loves me as I am and does not cut me out of the family picture. I also understood that God loves me very much and that I am His beloved child and important in God's eyes. I used to believe that Jesus would redeem me when I died, but I understood that He already redeemed me! I now know that I should not feel sorry for Jesus for His suffering, but follow Him. I must cultivate in myself the knowledge I have received here of God. I was very surprised by what I heard about the community, I understood that we have to help the weakest, but many times the tables turn and I can be the weakest who needs help. I understood that it is very important to help the weaker person, and I know that we can be brothers and sisters to each other, no matter how many classes I have, what knowledge I have, etc. I experienced that we are equally strong, that we are united in the love of Christ. I can say I am convinced that I am on the right path.

P.E.

I feel I have been able to experience this course in a very deep way. Conversion was not new for me, because I gave my life to God around February. I started going to church and I felt that God started to build me up. I asked God to do with me what He saw fit. When I came to this course, I felt very familiar with all the things I heard here. But then I realized that it was because God had been preparing my heart all along so that I could live it to the depths what I needed to. Many times, I have felt alone in my life, but God has now spoken to me.

K.E.

When I came to the course, I had no expectations. I went into the weekend with an open heart and mind to recharge myself spiritually. I got more than a spiritual recharge! In the storms of my life, I have always felt God's love. I realized on the course that I had an image of a punishing God and I am working to change that. I have come to understand that God helps me go the through crises and self-blame in my life. The Philip course brought me closer to Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I called them into my heart and this deeply touched me. What was new, and what I just understood, was that I have a 'sinful nature, that's why I sin, but now I know what I need to do in order to draw close to God, since He created me in order to love me!

B.E.

There is a great joy and gratitude in my heart for having been able to participate at the Philip Course! I am also grateful to you all for being there for me, because I have learned so much from the teachings, experienced what sins I need to leave and how I need to deal with them. I feel that I am getting closer to God through the teachings and I know that He is there with me and I want to walk in His way. I am looking forward to the course on inner healing and deliverance!

F.I.

I have deeply experienced the testimony of all the brothers and sisters. I have great respect for all the people who have so honestly testified of their past lives. There were many similar stories in my life before my conversion. I feel that they were encouraging to me that I could face my weaknesses and wounds and not be ashamed of them. Thanks and praise to the Lord for this. When they told me that this course was going to take place, I was very happy, but I didn't know what to expect. So, I came with no expectations, all I wanted was to build an even stronger relationship with God. In this course, my desire has increased in my heart, I am thirsting to know the Scriptures even better, because in the past years I have found comfort and strength in them. I do not want to be a half-hearted or divided follower.

B.-P.J.

This is the second time I have taken this course and now I feel that my heart is filled with gratitude, joy, love and peace. To be with my Heavenly Father and my brothers and sisters for two whole days was a wonderful experience for me, I feel that there is nothing better than that. I know and believe with my mind the infinite love of God, but often it is a long way from the head to the heart. The dynamics helped me to feel again the infinite love of God. I understood that He loves us, but He loves me in a special way! I know that I am a beloved child, He is again whispering in my ear that I am a polished diamond for Him. The Lord has confirmed to me that not only do I need Him and my brothers and sisters, but my brothers and sisters need me as well. How many brothers and sisters I have in the Lord! What a rich family I have! I also understood that I sin because I have a sinful nature, we are not without sin, but I am redeemed. I can't get rid of my sins by myself, I have to strive, I have to choose what is good, I have to pray, I have to fast to discern what is good, what is right. But Jesus has already redeemed me! If I live every day with Jesus, if I ask for the help and guidance of the Holy Spirit, if I trust Him with every minute of my life, then He will fill me with strength, I will live in peace and joy. The Holy Spirit will bear fruit! I have also understood that the Holy Spirit gave me the gift of tongues so that I can pray better; when I am tired and can no longer be present in prayer, the Spirit prays in me. I should also use it in intercession, especially when I don't know why I am praying. I feel that my Good Father, knowing the deepest desire of my heart, encourages me to act, to pray together with other mothers for our children and our families.

Sz.I.

I have great gratitude in my heart that God invited me to the Philip Course. I went to this retreat with an open heart. I have experienced the love of God and I know that I need to repent. I need to break away from my sinful life, my sinful habits (envy, gossip, etc.). I have come to understand that God wants to draw me to Himself and He does not do it by force. Unfortunately, I don't always see that. After the course, a process started in me whereby I feel nudged to be closer to Him, to welcome Him in my heart, so that He could be there with me, to experience His presence, to hear His voice, to let Him guide my life. May everything be for the greatest glory of God!

G.E.

I was very touched by all the teachings and became even more aware of how much our Heavenly Father loves me. I have a better understanding of the grace of salvation and the gifts of the Holy Spirit. I have understood that I don't have to worry about everyday life, because whatever difficulties come in my life, I can ask for the help of the Holy Spirit, which I have experienced many times.

Cs.J.

For me, this Philippine Course was a wonderful time, which I can hardly express in words. I truly felt the closeness of the Holy Spirit through the true love that radiated and emanated from all of us. I often feel the attacks of evil through my difficulties, but I understood that with the help of the Holy Spirit, of God, I can rise from the abyss. I wish there were not these great obstacles, but I know that if we carry each other in prayer, it has great power. Thanks and glory to the Lord for everything and for those unforgettable days of wonderful unity!

H.E.

I went to the course with a great desire to get closer to God. Through this course I feel I have found and come to know the Lord. I always wanted a handful of love from my parents, but I never got it, because 13 of us brothers and sisters were very hard to care for spiritually, mentally and physically. However, I understood that I could live in the great love of God and it was a wonderful feeling and experience for me. In the call of the Holy Spirit, I asked for the grace of forgiveness because I was abandoned by my mother and father and everyone when I was 8-10 years old. I lived at the mercy of drunk people with filthy intentions who did things in the name of love that no one should ever do. I experienced humiliation and degrading situations that I could never come to terms with. I kept waiting for my parents to come and take me away from there. This happened at my older sister's house where they took me to look after her child because I didn't go to school and they thought it would be useful for me. There you never knew who I would wake up with at night or who would touch me in ways they shouldn't! My sister and her husband were alcoholics at the time. Forgiveness is very hard for me but if God has forgiven me, I will too! I asked for the help of the Holy Spirit to be able to embrace my mother with love from the heart, because then forgiveness will be born in me. I couldn't go to the altar with a pure and clean heart, but God sent me a husband who is infinitely patient, kind, loving, caring, nurturing, blessed and a very good father to our children! I didn't realize this for a long time, until they got sick, and then came the realization that the anger I harbor could take all these away from me! I had always thought of myself as an outsider and from that came the idea that I didn't know anything, I needed to do much more and then maybe someone would see me. I understood on the course that to live with God is a wonderful feeling, to know that you are not alone, it fills a void that has always been there with me.

Heart of God the Father Course - Târgu MureÈ™ - 10-14 of April, 2024

Sz.D.

During the course, the Holy Spirit brought up several wounds I received as a child and I was able to forgive the person who caused them. I feel that I have healed a lot this week. I had not prayed to the Father much before and I have been able to do that now, which was a very pleasant experience for me. I feel that I have restored my relationship with the Trinity, I can now talk to the Father as well as Jesus and the Holy Spirit.

I really liked the course's change of approach to forgiveness, that has given us only one task, that to forgive one another, as we pray in the Our Father prayer. I was able to have a deep conversation with my mother, we asked for forgiveness from each other and this for me was very healing.

Cs.T.

I used to know that God loves and we can love each other with a passionate love, but these

things always lasted for a short time. My counselor and I prayed through the stages of my life, but I felt that something was holding me back and I couldn't fully draw close to God. It is very difficult to express my love, even at the level of kisses and hugs, even to my husband and loved ones. Through this course I feel I have been able to open my heart to God. I realized that I was very orphaned when I was little, I had no relationship with my mother and my mother did not express the tender love that I needed. During the prayers it was confirmed to me that I am affirmed loved by the Father, and that this was more than anything else, it is above everything.

Sz.Á.

A week before the course, I had a big break in my life. I don't remember being so disappointed in anyone, especially God. I felt like I have lost the relationship I had built with the Father, and it hurt me very much. I didn't feel God's closeness, I called on him, but he was not available and I got angry, but I know from the course on Inner Healing that feelings can be deceptive. Prayer was very good for me on the course because it brought up a childhood experience for me. I felt that God was not rushing my healing and that put me at ease. It was a great experience for me to have Our Lady come into the prayer, and at the end we said the Hail Mary together. On the first day when I had to imagine going to the Father, I could not do it, but after the prayer I could go to him during the worship. Jesus and the Blessed Virgin Mary have been leading me, and that was very good for me because I felt God was saying that not only am I with Him now, but I have always belonged to Him. I found peace.

B.M.

When I entered the Father's garden, I could smell the grass, the hay, and then I was in front of a tree and the Father was showing me how to prune the tree and help others. Afterwards, I was on a field where there was a sheep fold, and the Father told me to repair this place where it was needed, and in doing so he encouraged me to show love. After the work, he offered me food and drink, and I felt that the Father respected me. Afterwards, the Father took me to my tree and helped me to cut the branches from my tree that I had not managed to do, so we did it together. We also used a long saw to reach into the root. Then he took me to the sea and encouraged me to dare to step on the water. The sea was roaring, but he encouraged me not to be afraid. The Father said that Jesus and the angels would be with me on my journey. Later, we worked in prayer on my relationship with my father, whom I was afraid of and did not dare to relate to. I don't know what this fear was. I received the motherly hug in the course, but I realized that in my life was missing the fatherly hug. I opened my heart and received the Father's embrace through a brother and sister who was a team member on the course, and it touched me deeply. 18 years ago, I left a mass and I felt that my heart was going to jump out of my chest, it was beating so fast. This created a fear in me and constantly, when I got a little nervous, I would take my pulse and watch my heartbeat, in a panic mode. When I asked for prayer for this, it came to me that I don't know where this fear came from, but the Holy Spirit showed me that at the moment of my conception my mother was very afraid. That time in my mother's life was filled with fear. We prayed that this fear would be removed from my mother and from me. The Holy Spirit asked me if I wanted to be born, I said yes, and then I saw my mother lay me on her breast and she rejoiced that she had a son. That made her and me feel at peace. Since then, I have not checked my pulse, even when my heart was beating very fast, and I believe that God has healed me from this.

D.K.

I received a deep inner healing at this course, one that I have never experienced in any other course I have taken. During the prayer, I saw myself as a small child tied to the crib. I felt in that situation that I was alone and could not count on anyone. It felt good to cry this pain out. Later I felt that the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit were there with me in that situation. The Father untied me from the crib and said: I am here, you are not alone, you are mine. The Father took me in his arms and I experienced an inner harmony, a peace. I needed this for a very long time, and now I experienced the embrace of the Father, of the Son and of the Holy Spirit.

F.E.

I had a very painful childhood. My mother didn't show me love, she couldn't express it, I felt rejected by her, she said that I was bad, that I shouldn't have been born, etc... I was an unwanted child, they tried to get rid of me, but they couldn't. I felt it until I was almost 35, I lived with it. I would have loved to remember at least one memory of my mother taking me in her arms and hugging me, but I don't have one. I came to the course broken. My mother and I still fight a lot because I don't do anything well enough for her. I have attended many courses so far, but I have not been able to let go of the pain connected to my mother. However, now I feel a great freedom, an old heavy chain has fallen off my heart, I was able to forgive my mother, because now I see that she had a difficult childhood and she could only pass on what she received from her parents. I still have a lot of healing to do, but I have managed to come to the point where I want to love her even though she didn't love me. For 35 years I felt that our relationship depended on her only, but now I feel that I too can do something to restore our relationship, and I ask the Holy Spirit to help me.

T.E.

I had a difficult childhood, and because of that I felt all my life that I was not good, that I was bad. Whenever God told me I was beautiful, He loved me, I couldn't accept it. I was an unwanted child, they didn’t want me. My father became bedridden, because he was paralyzed. In that situation he opened up to me and told me a lot about himself. I could forgive him when he told me how difficult his childhood had been. He also told me honestly that they didn't want me, which made me break down. In prayer, the Holy Spirit showed me that God was with me from the moment I was conceived. He also showed me that in the womb my parents tried to kill me, to stab me with a knitting needle. God showed me that he put his hand there and the knitting needle pierced his hand and not me, it didn't reach me because God saved me. I lived a very broken, trampled life until I got married. Then I put on a suit of armor, a mask, which is all those lies about not being good, pure, etc. Because of all the hurt, I protected myself that way and that's how I married my husband. I wanted to go to the Father in prayer; when I went to him, my dirty clothes fell off me in shreds. When I got to the stairs, my Bridegroom, Jesus, was waiting for me and led me to the Father, and took off my armor. Under the armor I was in a fetal position, sore and dirty, but the Father warmed me in his arms until I could come out of that position. In prayer, I felt my father asking me to forgive him for the hurt and I began to heal. I also received a lot of hurt from my mother, because she was very cold to me, but I was able to forgive her too.

B.Z.

A year ago, my father died suddenly and I carried that grief with me. I felt the Father's love embracing me and waiting for me, and I felt peace and comfort. I started to cry and I could not stop, I was so moved by this experience. In the last year I have built up so much anger and I hurt my loved ones so many times. I tried to deal with it rationally, but I couldn't. In the course I was able to go back to my childhood where I had a lot of anger, and I was able to release it in prayer. I realized that I was trying to solve this problem with my mind, but I was not dealing with my hurt heart. However, I was now able to let go of my anger, and ask the Father to help me to keep my resolve. I received peace and tranquility in the course, because the Father was with us.

M.M.

I am amazed at the way God heals. These few days on the course have strengthened my passion for God. As a child, I did not receive a fatherly affirmation from home. When I was born, my father regretted that I, his third child was a girl as well, this was told as an anecdote in the family, which hurt me. During the meditation, I saw the story of redemption when the curtain was torn, the Father ran to me, took me in his arms, and this touched my heart. I felt that God had opened my eyes, that He had placed me in the Father's heart and I could be at peace. I received lively, personal surprises from the Father on this course. I longed for a real hug from the Father, which I received, and I didn't want it to end, and I recognized that this was a deep need that my parents had failed to fill. Every time my mother hugged me, she drummed on my back and I felt from that that she was rushing me, that I was too much for people. When I recognized this during prayer, I heard God say, "I look at you with joy, you are my delight. I remembered a childhood experience when my sister was in danger of her life, and at that time my parents did not have the capacity to pay attention to me. Then the Father took me in his arms and I just cried. I felt that I was being healed.

B.M.

I have been rejected many times in my life. My parents were very expecting me, but my grandparents who lived with them were very harsh people, so they made my parents eat what they cooked, all the time. During pregnancy, my mother vomited a lot of what she ate. On the day I was about to be born, my mother was given an injection by the midwife, so it was only after 2 and a half months that I was pushed out from my mother’s womb. I was completely turned black in the womb. I thought I had healed a lot from that, but on this course the healing continued. I could forgive the people who hurt me and I could thank God that I was born healthy. I was thankful also that my mother was okay and that gave me peace. I felt the Father was far away from me, but he drew near to me even when I could not accept his love. The Father embraced me and I was in his arms. 26 years ago, my father died, whom I loved very much and could receive a very good image of God from him. He got lung cancer and died, so I was angry with the Father for taking him away. But one morning, during worship, I saw my father sitting on the Father's lap and they were both happy. Tears of joy fell down my face; I am thankful for these days.

L.B.

I am grateful to the Father for calling me to this course. It confirmed to me how important I am to the Father out of 8 billion people. I understood that I also have to love myself. It is very difficult for me to forgive, I know it is a process, but I feel that God has strengthened me in this. In prayer, I saw Jesus introducing me to the Father, where I was in a fetal position and I felt very comfortable, and I wanted to invite my loved ones to come because it was so good to be with Him. I had in me a lot of selfishness and judgement, but I asked the Father to help me to be freed from them. As I progressed in prayer to the Father, I felt God give me the grace to let those bad things fall away and God said He loves me with an eternal love! The smiles I got from people on the course meant a lot, they touched my heart because they have conveyed to me the same message.

D.H.

To sum up the Father's Heart course in one sentence: we have a GREAT Father!!! I came to the course with an open heart and a strong desire to be in the presence of the Father, to experience Him as He reveals Himself to me here and now. And He was present to me, speaking to me, surprising me, healing me, comforting me. One of my most profound experiences was when He brought up a memory of mine, gently confronted me with a wound that had unconsciously determined my actions and attitudes, and it was accompanied by a very deep sense of loneliness. Then he didn't leave me alone, he stood by me, he appeared in that memory, and the way he related to me completely changed the feeling inside me; I felt confident that I could do anything, I am not lonely anymore even when I am alone, I have someone to turn to for help. The two best, very strong guardians stood by me: Jesus and the Father. It gave me a strength that I still feel today, and I feel as if I have seen many things differently since then. It was not just an experience or an impression, but a certainty. I didn't come home the same way I left. Many things were confirmed or clarified by the teachings. It was a new knowledge that forgiveness is a gift that is not always given to us, because it is the work of the Holy Spirit through us. And it is difficult to forgive because it is not just, but it comes from love. Love is not just either. It was a powerful metaphor for me that a heart transplant is only possible if I want it 100%, otherwise it my system will reject it. What I really liked about this course was that the teachings were more of a testimony, we were inferring from them what relationship God has created us to have with him and with each other. And also, that the greatest emphasis was on what the Father himself is revealing individually to each of us, here and now. I am happy to be the beloved daughter of such a Father!

Sz.N.

The Holy Spirit has led me through the teachings to be more conscious of my relationship with myself, with the people around me and with the Father. The Holy Spirit has revealed what is in my heart, the source of all conflict, and how the laws written in my heart (my beliefs about the world, myself, God) affect my thinking, my attitude to life and people, my choices and my relationship with the Trinity. I realized that I needed to be conscious of my heart on a daily basis. I understood that my life is not determined by circumstances but by the way I think. I can make a change by rewriting the laws written in my heart. I understood that through God's perfect love, I can know myself better and heal from long-held childhood hurts that have affected my adult life. For a long time, I struggled with feelings of rejection and unworthiness. In a prayer, the Holy Spirit showed me that several people in the family were born as unexpected children (my father, myself and my brother). Through my efforts to understand this, through my forgiveness, the Lord healed this area in me. I became convinced that my spiritual wounds cannot be healed by me or by the love of others for me, but only by the perfect love that exists in God. At the course I found some areas in my life where I had been an "orphan" and where I had not yet invited God's love. My orphanhood is evidenced by the fact that for a long time I could not genuinely rejoice in the success of certain people, I worried about my future, undervalued myself in certain situations, or competed with others. I have healed in these areas over the weekend, but it is not complete, a longer process that I will often have to consciously address. Bless the Lord for making my intimate relationship with Him even stronger, I am thankful for all the healing!

T.I.

I began my testimony on the last day of the course by saying that I am born again. I knew, I felt there, that everything would be different, that it would not go away when I went home. I knew it, but at the course I saw more comprehensively and with more certainty how much of a battlefield I live in, and although I am a great fighter, the many wounds and hits make it very difficult to fight, to take just one more step. I am tired, I am weary. So, I came to the course with a strong will, with a fervent, committed love for God, but tired. Now I am full of Life, of the Life-giver. But the battlefield remains. My wounded parents who are cold, my husband who enforces rules because of his pain, my boss who wraps bitter remarks in jokes, and my two small children who are hurt by an unpeaceful environment - and I could go on. The world is full of orphans. God answered the question, "Who am I in his eyes?" with the answer that I am an elite Corps warrior and his beloved daughter. He has shown me my strength, and his overflowing love. I knew and believed this in my heart and mind. But now I have felt it, I have gained a strong assurance, It has permeated my whole being, and still does. I need not seek him. I don't need to know he's here. He is here, all around me and all the time, the whole Trinity. It is truly a new life, with a new heart and a healed soul - no more of the bleeding, deep battles of the past. I look at my life in wonder, as one who is here for the first time. The usual barrage of hurtful reactions sounds familiar to my ears, my soul wonders and stares: have I been living in this? I've been living in this! Glory to you, Lord, that I have survived and even thrived on the course. And my own words, my reactions are not new, my speech, my presence, my perseverance are the same, and yet I wonder at myself, everything is different, I am new: what I say or do comes from the depths of my heart, not just a consciousness or a habit. And I know that the hurting hearts, which therefore hurt others in my family, will come to know the Father, and I praise Him for using me in this. I praise Him for what He has done in my heart and is doing in my life. The Father has prepared for me a really great party on this course (even though I came home as the older son this time), I received thousands and thousands of gifts. The best part is that I know that this is just the beginning. I can't wait to see how much more He does.

God’s response to the great challenges of life course - Miercurea Ciuc- 1-3 of March, 2024

G.K.

I was very moved by what I heard on the course. I suffer from migraine headaches, which the doctors could not help. The course made me realize that this is caused by too much stress in my life and that I need to make some changes. I want to reduce the stress in my life after this. I like to help people, but I have realized that I often do this without boundaries, which is also detrimental to my health. God does not want me to be sick, so I need to set healthy boundaries in my life.

B.V.

I was very touched. I feel like I've brought fear very much into my life. On the course, I realized that I don't have to be ashamed of my fears because God has already forgiven me and I don't have to blame myself. Many times, I don't know if I'm in the cave of self-pity or in that of self- blame, but I ask God to help me in those situations when it's hard, so that I can discern the right path and walk with Him. Also, I am in a grieving process right now, but I have come to the realization that those I have had to let go are well with God. Thank you.

O.M.

I liked the fear theme the most, because I live it every day. I would like to not let fear into my life, to not give it a chance in my life. Not to ask the question, what if..., but to call on the Good Lord right away and trust Him. I am determined to learn more Scripture passages to use as weapons in my life. I would like when I face new challenges and my fears come up, for example, what will happen if I lose my job, to trust God because He never leaves me alone, but always holds my hand and is with me.

B.D.

During these days I understood that it is very important to cultivate a relationship with God, to take quality time to be with Him. I had always longed for a relationship with God, but my life was so hectic, so busy, that I could not pray. Now I feel God has given me the grace to be able to make time for prayer. I want to pay attention to this and appreciate it because He has given me this so that I can live a fruitful life. Difficulties will come, but with God, I can overcome them. I have decided not to allow fear into my life, but to cling to the words and truths of God.

B.F.

The teaching about stress was the one that resonated with me the most, because I understood that it is very present in my life. I need more rest and especially sleep because I can focus on the Lord better when I am rested. I realized that personal prayer is vital in my life, I decided to go to the chapel after work to pray and gradually built it in. I understood that in prayer I should not only speak, but listen to what God wants to say to me. I want to give God the debris that has accumulated in my life so that he can build me up again.

A.Zs.

I have come to a deeper understanding that God will not leave me alone. When I failed and sinned, God did not turn away from me, but was merciful to me. The topic of failure touched me because it was good to hear that others have struggles and failures, not just me, and that you can get up from it. I received a lot of help during the course to experience the presence of God because I often had problems with not being able to grasp God's presence. I knew in my heart that God was speaking, but I wasn't sure. During prayer time I could feel His presence like never before. I would like to be more attentive to my physical needs so that I can focus more on God's leading.

F.I.

Despite the seriousness of the subject and the pain, I have to say that it was a pleasant (almost joyful), spiritually recharging weekend. I have found that when I am overstretched, it is much harder to get my life in order than when I am relaxed. From now on, I'll keep in mind that I don't have to say yes to everyone, that sometimes I would profit from some rest as well, because I tend to get depressed. Overcoming fear is a big challenge for me, I've reminded myself two important things: if I share the responsibility, my fear will be less. When the "wind" of fear arrives, or before, I need to ask for protection for all my actions, for all those entrusted to my care. I want to incorporate these into my life.

P.Cs.

God has confirmed to me that He comes first, and it always should be so. During the course, the Lord called me to turn my focus, the focus of my life and my daily life, to Him. Several times He asked me and I also asked myself, whose pleasure I was really seeking. I have made two interrelated and very important resolutions that I really want to stick to: one is to spend more time with the Lord, not out of habit or obligation, but because it is good to be with Him and to make that time quality time, "our time"; the other resolution is to seek the answer to the above question and once I have it, to set the right direction for me to follow.

B.K.

During the course I decided to invite Jesus into other areas of my life and accept Him as the complete and only Lord of my life. I have decided, and I am already applying it, to take better care of myself, to get enough rest, not to rush, to watch my meals, to do one thing at a time. I have decided to read the daily Gospel every day and to devote more time to prayer.